~The Captain @ Up She Rises
It’s hard to explain what I mean when I say that I don’t believe in “God” anymore, so I don’t really bring it up. Some people who love me, they get sad.
It seems that what they hear is loss and despair–fearfully, desperately I claw my way through the dark unknown. But it is more like: exhilaration and relief! With hope and joy I fly into a limitless blue sky; or, fall slowly and safely into a good and happy, never-ending, fully accepting awesome. Things are better than they have ever been. I am more brave than I was ever allowed to be. The only thing that I really grieve is how firmly the feet of old friends and family seem to be planted on the shore from which I am gladly sailing away. I tell them, “How wide and clear is the horizon! Anything is possible now.” And I fly a flag that means freedom.
It is alright with me that the people who understood me once no longer do so. I only wish that we could all dare to dream that everything we’ve ever wanted might actually be true.
Oh Captain, my dear, brave Captain! As I re-read these words, tears of hope, joy, admiration and affection spill over and run down my face pooling in the dimple created by the smile which spans my face acknowledging your beauty and your awesome