What If…

~Jenuine

what if I said it out loud
what if I put it on my status
what if I spoke it into a mic

what if I said how much I hurt
what if I said how tired I am
what if I said how little hope I have
what if I said how afraid I am
what if I said how often I think about dying

what if I told how you pillaged and plundered
what if I told how you never protected me
what if I told how you lied and manipulated
what if I told how you made me feel crazy
what if I told how you taught me to loathe myself

what if I told how I’d always make excuses
what if I told how I kept up the act
what if I told how you’re not so charming
what if I told how your words are poison
what if I told how the echo of your fist lingers on my skin

what if I told the truth
what if I told my side of the story
what if I told how fucking angry I am
what if I told how you defiled me
what if I told how you shattered my heart

what if I said, “Never again”
what if I said, “I am lovable”
what if I said, “I will not be bound by shame”
what if I said, “I respect myself”
what if I said, “I will not keep this secret”

what if I said it out loud
what if I put it on my status
what if I spoke it into a mic

What if…